Friday, June 2, 2006

Living with a "Keeper" part 2

 


I decided I needed to share why I posted my previous entry today.  I've been sinking into a negative rut lately.  With 2 higher-need nurslings (2 mo and 2 yo) I'm not getting as much of my own work done.  So, I'm frustrated with the state of my home right now.  And when I let my own work fall behind, I find it harder to overlook areas that are my husband's domain. 

I was becoming negative about the clutter, about my husband, and about my home.  I was not being thankful.  Nothing had really changed, except my own attitude.  I was getting tempted to stomp around, dropping hints about the mess.  I was tempted to start sneaking things into the trash again.  I was letting my pride keep us from entertaining others.  And I was feeding my own discontentment by allowing myself to procrastinate too much when I did have free moments.  There's a fine line between taking care of yourself (not pushing too much) and indulging yourself too much.  I think I crossed into over-indulgence in the past month.  I was wallowing.

One of my goals for this summer, is to get the children and I back into a good pattern of home-making.  They and I need to practice diligence again and not procrastinating.  We need to rediscover the joy of keeping the house neat.  And I need to train them all to take on new chores and pass down old chores, so we can all share the load better.

When I take care of my part of the house and mess better, I have more patience with the stuff my husband keeps, and with the fullness of our small house.

Now, that I've really confessed, I need to finish cleaning house for tomorrow's birthday party for C's 7th birthday.