I decided I needed to share why I posted my previous entry today. I've been sinking into a negative rut lately. With 2 higher-need nurslings (2 mo and 2 yo) I'm not getting as much of my own work done. So, I'm frustrated with the state of my home right now. And when I let my own work fall behind, I find it harder to overlook areas that are my husband's domain.
I was becoming negative about the clutter, about my husband, and about my home. I was not being thankful. Nothing had really changed, except my own attitude. I was getting tempted to stomp around, dropping hints about the mess. I was tempted to start sneaking things into the trash again. I was letting my pride keep us from entertaining others. And I was feeding my own discontentment by allowing myself to procrastinate too much when I did have free moments. There's a fine line between taking care of yourself (not pushing too much) and indulging yourself too much. I think I crossed into over-indulgence in the past month. I was wallowing.
One of my goals for this summer, is to get the children and I back into a good pattern of home-making. They and I need to practice diligence again and not procrastinating. We need to rediscover the joy of keeping the house neat. And I need to train them all to take on new chores and pass down old chores, so we can all share the load better.
When I take care of my part of the house and mess better, I have more patience with the stuff my husband keeps, and with the fullness of our small house.
Now, that I've really confessed, I need to finish cleaning house for tomorrow's birthday party for C's 7th birthday.
